Do y’all remember Polaroid cameras and pictures?
When you used a Polaroid camera/film, the picture would come out blank and you – well at least I – would shake it to develop the picture. Often times though, I would shake too vigorously and the picture would get screwed up. The colors would run, or part of it would be distorted. The best developing would happen if I’d just set the picture down and let it be.
Well, I was thinking today about the pictures I’ve had of my life. I had the picture in my head that I would be a high school english teacher. I had a picture in my head of weekly dinner out with my parents and sibling. I had a picture in my head of what my family would look and be like. Those pictures have changed.
I teach elementary school kids about Jesus.
I live too far away from my parents and siblings to go out to eat with them.
My family includes a husband who travels for work and 4 kids – mine, ours and someone else’s.
I never pictured any of that.
Here I am, at a point in my life, where the latest picture I had envisioned is again changing. I don’t know what that new picture will look like. I supposed I’m standing here, with the Polaroid in my hand and it’s still undeveloped. I refuse to shake this one.
Instead, I’ll let the Holy Spirit do the shaking. I’ll let God do the developing. His pictures always turn out way better than mine do anyway.